Mixtecs and Irish

Irish castle; Mexican paint job

Yesterday I finished a very fun, modern retelling of Emma by one of my favorite authors, Scottish Alexander McCall Smith. I just sat in a recliner all afternoon  with a fuzzy blanket over my feet and my left hand stuck up in the air and immersed myself in Jane Austen. Sigh.

The reason I stayed in the recliner all afternoon with my hand up in the air is because in the morning I had gone in for my next hand surgery. I have figured out what the needles feel like. In Texas a few summers ago, I was stung by a scorpion hiding in a shirt I was picking up off the floor. We saw over a dozen scorpions in that house. They were everywhere. And that’s what the needles feel like. There were three of them. Stab. Stab. Stab. The surgeon kindly asked me if I was alright. What was I going to say? Yes. It’s absolutely no big deal to get stung by scorpions. Three times in a row. When you know it’s coming, and you have to hold out your hand.

So I was taking the afternoon off and immersing myself in Austen’s world, where Miss Taylor takes courses on Open University, and Harriet texts Martin to cancel their date. Mr. Knightly is still Mr. Knightly. The author mentions how people want to claim they are from Chipping Norton rather than plain old London. And I was just in Chipping Norton a few days ago, so I know exactly what he means. Chipping Norton is this quaint (and as my map labeled it, “historic and picturesque) town where post-modern people live inside pre-modern houses. My friend Alyson’s daughter goes to high school there and studies things like Philosophy, Ethics, and Religion. We had the coolest discussions around the dinner table about the probability of miracles and the relevance of Hegel. How many of your friends’ kids are willing to sit around and discuss philosophy and watch “Everything is Spiritual” with you when you come for a visit?

Which brings me to “So how was your get-away” in Ireland and England? Marianne asked me if it was everything I’d dreamed of, and Diana asked me if I really did sit around and read books there. Answer to both questions: a resounding yes. Vacations truly reflect your culture as a couple, and this get-away reflected ours.

We weren’t interested in packing in the sites and attractions, following hundreds of tourists from spot to spot. We were more interested in being in beautiful places, exploring the unknown, finding the unexpected, and getting the feel of the place, soaking it in. We started  from an AirBnB spot in Temple Bar, downtown Dublin, across the street from Dublin Castle. When we walked out our little alleyway, there it was. We ate lamb at carveries, where they piled on enough food for four meals, and at night we went to pubs to listen to live trad (traditional music). One night there were Irish dancers.

Our host took time as soon as we got in the door to explain some Irish history (this is the hundred year anniversary of the 1916 Easter uprising, which we saw re-enacted on St. Stephens Green). There are reminders of the uprising everywhere. One building overlooking the River Liffy has the Proclamation of the Republic written in large on the wall for everyone to see and remember. Our host mused that the lost county (Northern Ireland) might return to the Republic if Brexit forced borders between the two countries. Our host at the northern tip of  Ireland, who worked in Northern Ireland, said that would never happen. That was our lesson in Irish Politics. The Irish reminded me of the Mixtecs because both cultures have been overshadowed by more powerful, more dominant neighbors. Both are forging new identities that meld their own traditions with the influence of their former conquerors, but the conquerors don’t much notice.  

There’s more to tell, of course. The challenge is to weave the telling into what is happening now, a collage of times and cultures: a “getting-away” couple, who connects everything to Mixtecs, and tours Ireland, and returns to Canada, to Jane Austen and scorpion stings.

Storm watch in Texas

The sky is white and low, and the day is dim, like early morning before sun-up.  There is no breeze to move the leaves. All is heavy and still. I imagine it will rain soon and dissipate yesterday’s heat. Storm weather.

Yesterday Philip left school in the middle of the day to drive four hours due west to a tiny town called Bellville. A friend had recommended him to an engineering firm there, and there’s a possibility of a summer internship. We messaged him to check the car before he left: oil, tires, gas. He called us on the road and mentioned rain. A few minutes later he exclaimed, “That is some rain!” We forgot what that can mean in Texas.

The interview went well as far as we can tell. They said if he got the job, maybe he could find a sublet in a nearby college town. I try not to imagine this—my son shopping around for shelter while I’m too far away (Ireland) to be of any help.  At four thirty, Philip called to tell us he was on his way back to Longview. He should be home by nine, ten our time. It wasn’t stormy in Bellville.

We didn’t hear the phone ring at ten. Or hear the chirp of the three messages. When we checked at ten thirty, we read: “Tornado hit. Roads blocked. A car fell on my tree, but I think it’s fine.”  We call and call and call, but there is no answer. We imagine him sitting in his car, in the dark, covered in tree. Robert asks me if I’m worried. And believe it or not, I say no. Philip hasn’t given any indication that he’s in immediate danger. I trust his judgment. “I wonder if he knows about flash floods and to stay out of dips in the road,” Robert adds. This is not comforting.

After another half hour, he calls. He’s had to backtrack and backtrack again to find a detour around the fallen trees. Robert reminds him about the dips and asks him if his Garmin is helping him along, and he says, no, the Garmin is useless. Once he takes a detour and finds it blocked, the unimaginative device that doesn’t understand natural disasters just directs him back onto the original road he’s just abandoned. He has to keep track of what roads he has already tried and found blocked so that he doesn’t try them again. As he’s talking, I’m wondering what his gas gauge is reading since he’s a few hours off his original ETA. He says that now another tree has fallen on the car, but it’s small, so he keeps going, and he tells us about the dirt track that he just took where his car was sliding around in the mud, making him wish he hadn’t attempted this short cut. I’m wishing the same thing.

We want to keep him on the phone, listen to him talk, gauge the situation by the tenor of his voice, keep him company in the wet dark. We wish our wishes could carry him home safe. But this is his own east Texas tornado to ride, and he needs to save his phone battery, just in case.

We stay up reading, waiting for the phone to ring. It chirps. He’s home by midnight. We fall asleep, relieved. Someone had said something earlier that day about flooding and tornado watches in Texas. Little did we know (horrible phrase), here in North Carolina, it was our watch, too. It is one of the two great themes of our lives: little do we know. 

Sheila and the gong

Yes, Agnes, a week ago I banged the gong with all my strength. The waiting room erupted in applause. When I sat in the chemo chair that day, I was thinking I might not do the gong. It was just me and Robert and the two nurses in my pod. It would be embarrassing. But Sheila took care of that. Sheila is the friendly, highly competent, unempathetic nurse who put in my pick line a year ago, took the pick out after chemo, told me I had really good veins for poking after the nurse in Imaging couldn’t find them, and was now the nurse to give me my very last IV infusion of Herceptin. Appropriate. Thanks, Sheila.

Sheila has a loud, commanding voice, and when she yelled, “We’re ringing the gong!!! Anyone coming?”  she gathered a crowd so big it didn’t fit in the chemo lounge hallway, and we had to move to the outside waiting room. So I had a lot of nurses, and some fellow patients pushing their IV poles, and a number of those waiting in the waiting room, and Robert, and my four good friends who showed up to surprise me, filling the room. Sheila gave me a butterfly sticker (!) to add to the chart (I was number 1042, I think), a tacky poem with terrible rhythm but perfect sentiment, and a short speech.   I gonged. Everyone cheered. I got hugs from all the nurses and all my friends and rode off into the sunset, never to return to that waiting room and that set of people again. I wonder what psychologist taught chemo clinics to send off their graduates with such flourish. I wish to thank her. Because those quick, simple, tacky (a sticker? Most of those patients hadn’t seen a reward sticker in 50 years) rites of passage help us take a deep breath and move on to whatever comes next. It reminds us that everything we experience comes in waves, seasons, stages, and that our job is to turn to the next one at hand.

In C.S. Lewis’ Perelandra, the planet Venus is awash in sweet-tasting seas with myriads of islands floating on the waves. You ride on friendly fish from fibery shore to fibery shore and the land undulates beneath you. You need sea legs for dry land. There is a lady being tempted toward a fall in this landscape, tempted to ignore Maleldil’s one command not to stay overnight on the one fixed land on the planet’s surface. Part of the Temptor’s argument involves rejecting the next wave that is coming and trying to hold on to what has already been. This green Perelandra lady lives in Oz, and her tornado is a watery one that moves her daily to new scenery. Sometimes she wonders what it would be like not to have a life shaped by Maleldil’s waves. We do not want her to know.

Obviously, I have no wish to stay in cancer treatment. That is not a wave I will miss. But I will miss the younger body I had before treatment , and the homes I’ve had (with a farm outside my window; a train track; azaleas; a Bruce trail), the events (a Christmas wedding and three houses full of guests!), good food (Marg’s cooking; peaches every day!), and the friends who saw me through (do you have time for one more round of Quiddler?) I see the dark swirl of the tornado outside my window, and I hold my breath and grab the reins in preparation for another ride. I think of those riding tornadoes of their own: Leslie, Bob, Sam, Evelyn, Caroline, Annette.

These rites of passage are those in-between moments that give us one last chance to catch a breath and grab the reins. We’re not sure whether to whoop or grimace. We do a little of both.

Dream of heaven

So…heaven. You knew I couldn’t stay away from this one. Gail’s first question was…where? Here? Up there, somewhere? We have little more than hints in Scripture about this and a lot of bad paintings portraying imaginings that have very little to do even with those hints. I think we can do better than that!

One of my favorite verses of the Bible says, “God hasn’t shown us what we will be like when Christ appears, but we do know that we will be just like him…because we will see him as he really is.” Death kills these eyes, this way of perceiving and processing things. When Jesus walked with his disciples to Emmaus, they didn’t even recognize him, and only their hearts burned inside them. Their eyes had to be opened, and it’s always so hard to keep them that way. So soon we lose the vision. But death ends that poor vision and somehow frees us so that when we next see Jesus, our eyes stay open forever. His existence must call us forth from the nothingness in the same way he called the heavens and the earth from nothingness (I don’t believe like the old Greeks that we have an eternal, disembodied soul wondering around, causing trouble. No, I believe death ends it all. Then Jesus, body and soul, quickens us, body and soul, forever.)  Like a bell, or a gong, or a trumpet call, his resurrection must resonate through the nothingness and call us to life, bones connecting to bones, sinews to sinews, body to spirit. Jesus already lives this new life, but we can’t see it. When he disappeared, his body rose in the air. It didn’t just vanish. He went somewhere. And he comes back visibly from somewhere to call us home. But he’s not far away. His Spirit lives in us now. The kingdom of God is already at hand. So I think that heaven is here already, all around us, but we don’t have the eyes to see or the ears to hear that gong yet. We have not yet been purged by death of poor eyesight.

And what could it be like? John, as well as the writer to the Hebrews, pictures heaven as a city. Not a paradise garden anymore, from where one forlorn couple trudges off alone, dressed in pelts.  No, this is a gathering of people, a great city of people, an organized, crafted, man-built structure that houses everybody. This is Babel in reverse, a city coming down from heaven with its mighty gates open on all sides for all those dispersed tribes and nations and languages and tongues to come back to and enter freely. This is a place showcasing what man can do under the rule of a good king. The walls are crafted, squared off, thick and gleaming. The gates are each made from a single pearl (there is no ocean, so where did such giant oysters lie?) This is the work of many artisans, a perfect team, an organic organization, building this architectural wonder. And people are free here. They come and go. And no one discriminates against them, and no one makes war or builds walls to keep them out. Everyone is welcome in this city. It is a source now, not of pollution and corruption, but of healing and life. Clear rivers flow through its center and strong trees flourish along its central avenue, and nothing threatens them. There is no garbage, no choking air, no offense against the earth.  This is humanity living as it was meant to live on the earth, not primitively, but in full mastery of all its trades and skills and giftedness. Listen to its swelling music. You’ve never heard music like this before. Wonder at its advancing technology. You’ve never seen science like this before. Admire the scenery. You’ve never seen creation free from cursing and groaning before. Look at the people. They are working together and loving it. Finally. It’s globalization and beyond, but without selfishness.

Night in this great city is gone, and sleep, those previews of death, because we’ve come up on the other side in Jesus’ wake. Been there, done that. We are too busy for night now. Or death. We have too much to do for the King and one another now. Too much to learn, to build, to share with one another. We have a city to create. It is Utopia. Come, grab your tools!

Talking to my future self

Some friends took us out to a nice restaurant here in Winston-Salem. We sat in the sunroom, wide with windows, green ruffles and deep booths. I ordered the lunch special, a salmon Florentine on mashed potatoes with some kind of sauce with just the right amount of tart. Oh my goodness, was that ever good. So good, I contemplated (for a few minutes) actually asking what it was called and going online and trying to learn how to make it. But never fear. I gave up. It would be impossible. I’ve been trying to bring half of these kinds of meals in take-home boxes so that I can (1) enjoy them twice, and (2) not eat so much, but the next thing I knew, my plate was clean. That Florentine had just disappeared.

Which is fine. Except that the meal had slipped past my best intentions and spooned itself right down my discerning palate. How does that happen? War! We are at war with ourselves. Someone described it as having our Present Self shrugging off responsibility onto our Future Self, which is not around yet to defend itself. So today’s “I” decides that tomorrow’s “I” (which is a different “I” than the one actually speaking right now) will exercise, or stop eating so much, or save more money, or take a missions trip. It’s pretty easy to lay responsibility on someone else. We’ve been doing that since the days of Adam (“You see, Lord, “that woman you gave me…”). I mean, think about all the things the “I” of yesterday did, which today’s “I” wishes, wishes she had never done. If only…if only… You can get so mad at that “I” from yesteryear that has got you into so much trouble. Just look at where “I” am now!

And the funny thing is that there is not one thing wrong with that Florentine meal. I was just reading James this morning, and he kept insisting that every good and perfect plate of Florentine salmon is a gift from God. And God doesn’t tempt people. No, it’s my wanting stuff that gets me into trouble every time, even if what I want is just another bite of perfect Florentine. We think of being tempted by wrong things and we try to steer clear. But I bet that more often than not, what gets us is wanting more and more of the good stuff.  You know, just the little things. That add up. Around the waist somewhere, or the schedule, or the house, or the heart. Treasures. Hmm. Where are those good things now? Where did I lay them down last? Let me check.

Too much of a good thing. Even books and studying and good food. James says that when we pray, we shouldn’t be wavering about who we’re talking to. God or Someone Else. Are we asking for something he wants to give us, or are we asking for something it would sure be nice to have? I wonder what our prayers today would sound like to our spiritual forefathers? To James leading a persecuted church in Jerusalem? To John living out his days, isolated on Patmos, dreaming his dreams and writing his revelation? To Jesus himself, kneeling in that garden, “Father, not what I want…?”

Too much of a good thing. That’s how John described the city of Babylon in Revelation. That’s what’s going to get us in the end.

Talking to Gail about heaven

When we left Canada, the plum trees in front of the house still looked like a bundle of pitchforks threatening heaven, and the yard had been white with snow a few nights before. There was no green in the trees yet. As we drove south, mile by mile, we watched Spring dress the woods in fast forward. First the emerald jewelry flashing occasionally against the brown-skinned limbs flanking the highway. Then the fluttering green umbrellas against the sky. Then trees fully clothed and shimmering, and finally, in North Carolina, the accessories—flowers in all the reds and pinks my heart could wish for after several sorts of winters.

And here in North Carolina I visit and sing and pray and dream of future plans and debate theology and share my story and eat heaping plates of southern food. These are friend supporters I have not seen for several years, so we must compress our time together into these two short weeks, another kind of fast forward. And I rejoice with my friend Caroline who rang a bell instead of a gong and is waiting for medical clearance to go back to her field of service. She’s hoping when she buys her plane tickets that there will be seats together for all seven of her family. Little baby Salem grins at me and roars her lion roar. Her four brothers teach me how to play Ticket to Ride. And my heart is heavy when Frank tells me his wife Leslie has a rare kind of cancer, incurable, deadly, painful. The church family he pastors prays ferociously for miracles. The chemo is bad. Here spring and winter live side by side.

My friend Gail writes down questions she’s pondered lately about things she’s studying in Sunday School at her Presbyterian church (she’s born and raised Moravian). We look over together the Westminster Confessions she’s highlighted—those troubling phrases that contradict the creed she’s lived by for so long, the Moravian Ground of the Unity, where Jesus is expected to have died for everyone, not just the ones who love him back. And we compare Genesis 1 with Genesis 2 and notice how in Genesis 2, God leaves the work of producing wild plants and grains to the earth itself and to its human managers. He doesn’t use a miracle but a natural providence, a divinely handled, natural process.  He loves the earth’s work. And ours. There is no shame in waiting for God to do his job on earth through natural means.

And today she is coming for supper to talk about heaven. Heaven! Talking to Elai last night (I am forbidden from calling Philip since this is “hell week,” his finals. He interrupted his studies long enough to message about a perfect score on his circuits midterm. The last few messages were about a 104% grade, and a 107%. His dad asked him if LeTourneau was just getting too easy, and everyone was scoring high. He didn’t think so…) Elai wondered what we could possibly have to say on the topic of heaven. I mean, “how do you know?” I said I don’t. Not more than anyone else. And the Bible only hints. Ahh. But I have so much fun imagining. Don’t you? I could imagine heaven for hours. Just get me started. And what I know is that no matter how far I stretch my brain to imagine greater and greater things, God will always outdo me, so there’s no harm in letting my imagination run wild, wild, wild. Run wild with me! Challenge me (and him) with your imagination. There are no losers in this game. We live in winter now. But the emeralds flash against brown-skinned limbs. Winter and Spring live side by side.

A culture I just don't get

Today I am packing up suitcases and boxes. Tomorrow is my last day in this good home (thank you, Bev and Greg!) before my tornado picks me up and whirls me away again. I’ll be staying with Janey for the total of three weeks I have left in Ontario. The rest of the weeks before returning to Mexico I will be in North Carolina and the British Isles. I can’t wait.

Usually I am content to ride the tornado, getting dropped in new cultures, but not always. Some cultures I prefer to ignore because they feel seamy and threatening. I’ve no desire to get intimately acquainted with casino or strip club culture. Or…

Trump rallies. Robert was reading aloud to me an article in the New York Times by Jeff Sharlet, who attended Trump rallies in Ohio and Arizona and described them in detail. I’ve not been to one myself, so I don’t really know if he’s exaggerating. He sounded credible enough. Strange thing to me was that he described Trump as a preacher building a congregation for his version of a prosperity gospel. All the religious fervor was there, the drama, the assurances of salvation from a common Enemy. There was adulation.  Even parables. Was it a fair description???

Sharlet describes the Ohio rally from when Trump’s 757, heavy with gold, filled the hangar doors, drawing oos and ahhs from the approving crowd, to when, in the after party at a local bar, a guy who’d been on the fence before the rally finally converted, yelling over his beer, “I don’t care if you’re racist…if you’ll just bring back one [expletive] steel mill!”

The journalist describes how the warm-up preacher’s shouts of “He is worthy! He is worthy!” meaning both Trump and God, led right back into the playlisted Stones’ song, “Let’s spend the night together,” but no one sensed any contradiction because to this crowd there wasn’t any.

Sharlet says that Trump makes people feel good. They are getting back something they (perhaps) lost. He persuades them that he WILL save them by his own personal power (and he has gestures to show the size of his…prowess) from the Enemies that threaten them.  Like any prosperity preacher, he assures them that if they support him, they will ride his coat-tails to wealth and dominance (“Small Vietnam. Small Japan,” he says. “We’ll take them to the shed.”) It’s all in the power of positive thinking (quoting Preacher Normal Vincent Peale).

Sharlet describes how Trump dramatizes a set of “parables” from his pulpit. There’s “The Call,” where Trump forces American companies back home with a phone call; there’s “The Snake, where he hisses, “You knew damn well I was a snake before you took me in!” And there’s “The Bullet,” where he mimes how American General Pershing supposedly smeared 50 bullets with pig guts to execute 49 Muslim terrorists, handing the last “pig-infested” bullet back to one survivor as a warning. Apparently, the crowd in the Ohio hangar liked hearing this. Apparently this “hitting back 10 times as hard” is what it means to win and prosper and make America great.

If anyone has been to a rally, did Jeff Sharlet get it wrong? Is there something about this particular culture I could actually like?

Going to Rhetoric Class with Elai

Yes, I voluntarily read  A History of Christian Thought in One Volume. (The “One Volume” part was a selling point) while I was with Elai in Chicago. It seemed appropriate, somehow, to be reading what looks like a textbook while she was off to her acting class, her Old Testament Survey class, her Rhetoric class (!) Actually I got to go to one of those. Rhetoric is the art of persuasion, and the day I went, Dr. Chase was giving examples of ancient Chinese persuasion. He quoted Confucius saying: “To fail to speak to a man who is capable of benefiting is to let a man go to waste. To speak to a man who is incapable of benefiting is to let one's words go to waste. A wise man lets neither men nor words go to waste.” (Analect 15:8) Confucius was such  a master of word play. I wonder what he and G.K. Chesterton, the English master of paradox, would have sounded like in conversation. I hoped to go to the next Rhetoric class, which was to be about African rhetoric, but I couldn’t make it, so Elai is sending me the link. I’m such a student!

Which keeps me reading my history book. It’s good because it shows you why your church teaches certain things and not others. You think your set of beliefs came down from antiquity as a package deal. But it did not. Theologians over the ages added bits and pieces, some far longer ago, and some more recently, than you might think. And if you were to read about some of these theologians, you might be dismayed. They don’t match up with what you might describe as a model Christian today. What do you do with this mixed bag of thinkers and doers who are our spiritual ancestors?

Take the Roman Tertullian, a lawyer/ theologian (as most of the Roman theologians were) from the third century, who outlined the doctrine of original sin and first described the trinity as three persons with one substance.  He also gave us the Doctrine of Satisfaction, which tells the story of salvation as a legal business transaction, a payment of debt to free sinners from their master. These are all doctrines that many Christians hold today. But Tertullian also supported apostolic succession, condemned all fornicators to hell, repentant or not, and forbade widows from marriage. He was also not clear on whether the Son existed in the Godhead before creation. What a mixed bag.

Meanwhile, in other parts of the world, salvation was being described in completely different terms, as a drama of Ransom and Rescue. This was the predominant view among most of the church fathers for the first thousand years of church history until a shift came at the turn of the first millennium, under Anselm of Canterbury, who took up Tertullian’s Satisfaction Doctrine, which has prevailed as the primary story of salvation among both Catholics and Protestants ever since. A writer named Gustaf Aulen  brought back the ancient story in 1931. Truth be told, though both stories describe the exact same event, Christ redeeming us forever through his life, death, and resurrection, I like the Christus Victor account best. It resonates with me—this drama about Jesus coming as the ultimate hero to conquer the enemy and rescue his fallen bride. I am glad that the study of Christian thought has given us back this story. I am glad Justo Gonzalez reminds me that my theological ancestors where (what looks to me now) a mixed bag. It gives me hope.

Stitches out

I was so close to making it through the two weeks without an issue. Tomorrow the stitches were to come out. Yesterday they got infected. Oozing pus and all that.  In another hour I see the doctor. I’m quite placid about this right now because I don’t know any better. Perhaps when I finish writing this later in the day and have the rest of the process to look forward to, I might not be so sanguine. I’m very brave…just until the first needle goes in.

I think about this: how in ignorance I’m so sure I could tackle anything, but when it comes down to real pain, I can’t. My BSF group is finishing Revelation. We’re in the part where the beheaded martyrs come to life again and reign a thousand years with Jesus, and those who aren’t signed in to Life are thrown into a lake of fire. This scene is worrisome to me, because I don’t trust my courage. It’s easy for you to say, “Oh God will get you through it.” But history proves it’s not that simple.

I think of the martyrs who made it to death without betrayal and those that didn’t (I’ve been reading a book called The History of Christian Thought by Justo Gonzalez, which I highly recommend). There’s this story of the English archbishop Thomas Cranmer, who was imprisoned for holding Reformation beliefs. After three years he was released into sudden sumptuous living, and the unexpected kindness caught him off guard (ancient version of good cop/bad cop strategy). He recanted and signed away his newfound beliefs. Soon after, he repented of his repentance and was condemned to burn at the stake. He reached out his hand to the fire, the hand that had signed his betrayal, until it burnt to a crisp, saying, “This unworthy right hand; this unworthy right hand.” And I’m worried about stitches.

I think of Shusaku Endo’s missionary in Silence, who during the persecution of Catholic believers of Japan in the seventeenth century, was taken into a room where Christians were hung upside down over a pit with tiny cuts on their bodies draining their blood. They were beyond agony. He asked why the sufferers didn’t recant. “Oh, they recanted long ago,” said the missionary’s jailor. “They have already spit on the face of Christ. They are kept here now to make you recant to ease their suffering.” Read the book. We as safe, secure North Americans do not wrestle much with the silence of God in other parts of our world. We say we’re staunch believers, but we’re not even up for the risk and bother of being Good Samaritan to some Muslim refugees. How brave is that?

I’m back from the doctor, queasy, but relieved, and with the stories of martyrs still in my head, our own version of Christian horror. If Dawnelle were listening to this post, she would be holding her hands over her ears, squeezing her eyes shut, muttering, “Puppies, puppies, puppies. I’m thinking of cute, cuddly puppies.” It’s too much to take in. No, it’s impossible to take in. I know brothers and sisters and children of martyrs. Do you? I’ve been at the graves of Mixtec martyrs shot down for their faith. How can I predict what I would do in their shoes? I can’t. My trust can’t be in my courage. I’ve seen enough pus and needles and embedded stitches to know that much. For me now it’s just one needle at a time. God has to figure out the rest somehow, whether I turn out to be courageous or not.

Teaching styles

I’m in a number of weekly Bible studies when I’m home. I enjoy them.  They make me study and think and wonder and have questions, After a year of observation, I’ve concluded that there are various kinds of questions I can bring to the studies and various ways that leaders can field these questions. The two main kinds of questions I’ve observed are questions of clarification (what did you mean by that? What does that mean/?) and questions of challenge (How did you get that from the reading? Couldn’t there be another interpretation for that passage?) I’ve found that some leaders are quite comfortable with the first kind of question because it allows them to teach further what they had already intended for us to understand. Clarification questions help them do their job. It takes more gifted teachers, however, to field the second kind of question because these questions don’t follow the teacher’s line of reasoning. They might take time away from her well thought out lesson plan. They might confuse the rest of the group. Or they might even go beyond what she can answer. To field these questions is risky.

And there are different kinds of study leaders. Some of them view their class as an opportunity to impart their wisdom, to transfer a certain body of knowledge from teacher to student.  The questions they use are intended to draw the student toward the answers that they have already formed before class began. The study is an opportunity for students to check their answers against what the teacher has already filled out in her notes. This kind of teacher sees truth as a closed set of answers that she, for the most part, has, already, painstakingly, assimilated, and the students’ job is to “fill in the blanks.” There is a place for this kind of efficiency, though perhaps not in a Bible study. Recently I saw a teacher illustrate this style of teaching with a set of boxes, carrying questions, overlaying a cross.  “Once you answer the questions correctly (with these answers), the cross will become clear to your listeners,” this teacher assured us (the boxes disappearing from the screen, leaving the cross in the center). Someone asked this teacher if there was any question that he couldn’t answer on this topic. Can you guess the teacher’s answer? 

Another kind of study leader sees the “class” as an opportunity to reach truth together. Sure, the teacher may have more knowledge about this particular passage because she has studied it more thoroughly, but who knows what knowledge and experience the rest of the group brings to the table? Perhaps they’ve seen the truth of this scripture applied in another culture. Perhaps they have discovered some fresh insight about life. Perhaps they have discovered that a certain pat answer to a particular standard question just isn’t right. Such things happen. Perhaps the group needs to arrive at truth through a process of interacting, thinking, and checking the evidence, like the noble Bereans—not through just being told. But anyone leading this type of group must risk the group ending up in some unexpected spot.

All the scientists in the world come to realize one thing: they will never reach the end of their research. Truth just keeps opening up more and more the longer they go.  I imagine we scientists of faith should experience the same thing: how can we exhaust the truth about God? It’s never all sewn up; it never fits comfortably in a set of boxes. There is so much more to know. After researching teaching styles this year, I’ve confirmed the kind of teacher I want to be when I grow up.  I want, like a favorite teacher of mine, to be the one beckoning, “Come further up! Come further in!”

Invisible visitors

I was just in Chicago for a few days with my daughter. To sit on the couch together and just catch up, catch the nuances, catch the details. These are moments I live for.  I always feel a pang when other moms talk about their grown kids just stopping by to visit. They have their kids (and eventually, grandkids) close by. Mine are far away. I take the visits when I can.

And when they need a home to return to, when they are released from their studies, I can't provide even that now. Philip talks about living in a dorm for the summer, or a trailer, or in an "extended stay hotel." A hotel! Not that he couldn't handle it. He can. He will. But still...

He reminds me of those Arkansas workers who came to Niagara years ago to scrub Smithville's PCB dump, a job Robert shared with them twenty-five years ago, when we were first married. He would describe for me how he wore a Tyvek suit and mask and stand for 15 minutes at a time in front of the fiery furnace that burned the PCBs and passed the job to the next guy before his body overheated. And he described how he had to scrub the roof of the structure clean, standing high up on a platform, cleaning off the cancer inch by inch. Who knows what risks he took, along with all those Arkansas migrant men, cleaning our ground water of poison. 

And when they were done, my husband came home to me in our basement apartment, and the Arkansas men went home to their hotel rooms and their fast food and their southern accents. My son will be like them, taking his Oaxacan-Ontarian-Texan culture with him wherever he goes. Will someone invite him home for lunch? Will someone notice a stranger? Did we notice those men from Arkansas? There was one of those men who had a family of seven with him. We met them at church and invited them home to dinner. They were surprised. They didn't often get invitations for such a big family. Later we visited them in Arkansas in their new-to-them southern fix-up home, with its deep, covered wrap-around porch, complete with porch swing, To Kill a Mockingbird style. 

How hidden, often, are the strangers in our land. My son joins their ranks sometimes. I'd house him in his own home for the summer, if I could. He's competent but, still, he's just nineteen. May someone else befriend him wherever he goes this summer--him and all those just like him, all those mothers' sons caught in life's migrations.

Sore, bandaged hands

I am home with sore and bandaged hand wondering if it was worth it because I can’t tell yet (any more than I can tell after all my herceptin sessions if I’m cured. I had my next to last on Tuesday. Almost finished. Yay!) The procedure was over in five minutes. That was the easy part. The hard part was six needles straight into the nerve and the angry reawakening of those disturbed nerves later in the morning. But the worst is over. I’m already typing with both hands. I won’t think about the next surgery in June. Except to wonder if the surgeon will find a more attentive nurse. I was awake through everything to hear him quietly call her on her mistakes, “I said no springer. I have no use for that.” I have til June to research what a springer does. Maybe I don’t want to know.

Instead, I think about how much our culture trains us toward faith. I walk willingly into a room with medical paraphernalia and wait patiently for some stranger I’ve just met to poke me painfully with needles, snip away at my bones, and tell me to come back for more in six weeks’ time. I think in those waiting moments that I could just get up and walk away. But I don’t. I trust this system that packs the little waiting room “against the green wall,” as the receptionist put it—unfortunate terms. There are no free chairs, and Robert and I go back down to the first floor for coffee. Back in the waiting room, where family members, including Robert, give up their chairs for the patients waiting to be called, two sets of friends find each other unexpectedly, “Hey, what are you doing here? I didn’t know you were coming!” I greet my cousin in law. We notice the young girl, there alone, her face pale with fear. She has just enough faith to sit and wait her turn.

God gives us all these ways to teach us trust. The sun keeps coming up, and gravity always keeps our feet on the ground. Our mothers always love us (this is his plan; it can be thwarted), food always tastes good, and doctors always make things better. We know these things should always happen. And when they don’t, we know there’s something wrong; the system fails. We sense it should not be this way.

We learn of trust, and trust being broken. Life is a school to teach such things. And hopefully, if God has his way, there will also be lessons of trust rekindled, of sacrifices made, of the innocent defended and the guilty forgiven, of evil overturned and redeemed, so that we can know such things are possible. So that we would wonder if there’s not something to trust beyond ourselves and the limits of our universe.

Because the universe does not forgive. There’s never grace in Nature. A lion always eats the helpless lamb unless it’s trained and taught to trust a man. Or woman.

But doctors and mothers and gravity point to God. And since that was not enough, Jesus came and put into words the silent yearning of God’s heart, “For God so loved…” And now we know that in all things we can trust and give thanks. In death, certainly, but also in life, in the small things, like needles into nerves and sore, bandaged hands.

Mountain roads

Did any of you go see that movie Inside Out? My daughter dragged me to it, but I’m glad I saw it. The images of those palaces crashing down into the abyss as the girl’s world was rocked struck me. I know what that feels like, having your neat plans and cheery expectations…dismantled.  You know, it’s images you need when all the facts are in, but you are still wrestling with your emotions, because words don’t say enough. It’s why we need music and art and literature—all those symbols and metaphors to picture pain and joy, sometimes together.

It’s like those alarming rides in the back of a truck to the mountain Mixtec village where we lived in Guerrero. Up. Down. Around and around. Shaken, banged, jolted. But surrounded by beauty.

Similarly, I feel a mix of emotions. I now have stuffed on my calendar every medical and traveling event that is planned for the next few months. Don't know how much writing will get done. Sunday, Robert and I head to Oaxaca City, and from the airport, we drive to an Indian market town where we will spend the week training new Mexican missionaries. This is a highlight of my year. Because of our involvement with this program, there are now trained Mexican missionaries living in Guerrero, reaching out to Mixtecs. One of these missionaries is on our team now and expecting! J

A few days after coming back to Canada, I will have surgery on my right hand. L A few days later, Robert leaves for a week in Guadalajara where he will be training more missionary candidates. J L So Janey will be looking after me until my hand works again. Then I have my final chemo (Herceptin) treatment, and I get to ring the gong J (please come join me if you are free noon, April 15^th)

The next day we drive to North Carolina to visit supporting churches and my friend Caroline, a missionary going through the same thing I am. We’ll be comparing war stories and scars. J But I will miss the women’s retreat here. L

The week we come home, we immediately repack our bags, and finally take that 25^th anniversary trip cancelled by chemo last year. Ireland! Yay! And thanks to the anonymous friends that helped make it possible! On the way home, we will be seeing three good friends in England we knew in Honduras before we got married (one was in my wedding). Yay! J

Then, the week we get home, I have surgery on the left hand. L And wait for the stitches to come out after a flurry of doctor’s follow up visits. And then we leave for Mexico. J And leave Manal and Rashad and Bayan and Hammudi and all my friends and family here, L especially my sisters, who have made this year good. J

What a ride! What does God intend to do with this mountainous road of emotions, all those twists and unexpected turns, the ups and downs, and around and arounds of shifted feelings? All of the life he gives us is purposeful, profitable, preparatory. What does he intend, after I’m finished up here, with all this?

Come find out with me.

Where else would we go?

Today I was stacking piles of books that need rides to Mexico with us next week. The piles are high, and still the bookshelf is full. On top I laid three books I got for Christmas, including one called Bad Arguments. It’s an illustrated book that explains logical fallacies, and I plan to show the cartoon examples to my students next year when we are evaluating arguments. As I flipped through the book, of course, the fallacies that caught my attention were the ones I’ve run into most recently. One of them, called the Slippery Slope, goes like this: “If you let Muslim refugees into your country, next thing you know, they’ll all radicalize and shoot and rape your kids.” They will not all radicalize and shoot and rape your kids.

Another similar fallacy that caught my eye was the Appeal to Fear. This one I heard in this form: “If you don’t teach your kids a particular interpretation of a certain passage of the Bible, and if you don’t answer all their questions on this topic correctly and immediately, then they will walk away from the church.” They will not walk away from the church simply because you didn’t answer some of their questions about a passage of the Bible. In fact, my guess is that the facts point in quite another direction: that it’s this kind of dogmatism (definition: the tendency to lay down principles as incontrovertibly true, without consideration of evidence or the opinions of others) that will turn kids away from the church. In this day and age, I bet what they want to hear from us is that we might not know everything after all; we might have doubts, too. When will we learn this?

The harshest fallacy thrown at me recently was the False Dilemma. This is when you are falsely presented with only two possible positions on an issue. If you reject one position, you are assumed to hold the other. It’s also called Either/Or and, also, Unwarranted Assumption. This is the form that it took at first: “You have a gospel with no teeth because you don’t share my interpretation of Genesis 1 (the painful part of this accusation was that it was shelled out by a friend before I’d even said anything. It was based on hear-say.) Now I finally understand where my friend’s assumption lay because I just heard this False Dilemma fallacy again more recently. The assumption about me is that if I believe a certain way about Genesis 1, then I cannot believe in the fall. Hence the weak gospel. Wow. False. I have told the gospel story, beginning with creation, to hundreds of people, and the fall of man weighed heavily in that story every time. There are not just two positions on how Genesis 1 relates to Jesus.

John, when he first set pen to paper, called Jesus the Logos. The Reason.  The Logic. The living Word spoken by God. God is the source of all clear thinking, all reasoning, and all logic. Satan hates reasoning and logic, so he constantly lies and twists things, and logical fallacies and dogmatism are strictly his domain. (C. S. Lewis, who shares my interpretation of Genesis 1 and does not hold a weak gospel, showed a demon-possessed man in one of his novels using reason as a tool to tempt someone. But once he was finished, he dropped it and returned to his true nature, repeating and repeating and repeating inanities.)  One of the reasons I teach English is to train myself and my students to catch the enemy’s fallacies. I miss dozens of them all the time. Just ask my husband. But I want to be like Jesus, my Logic, my Reason.

Here’s the most excusable of the fallacies: the Argument from Consequences (Example: Nuclear holocaust is unthinkable; therefore no one will go there). Jesus had given people some hard words, and many abandoned him. Jesus asks his friends, “Do you want to leave me, too?” Peter protests, “Where else would we go?” The thought of leaving Jesus was appalling, the consequences of losing him unthinkable, even with the hard things Peter didn’t get. So he just holds on, drowning, begging for help. This was the love cry of a desperado, so Jesus let the fallacy slide. I like this guy. I’ve said those words, too, drowning.

Teaching a machine

I wake in the morning a bear, not in attitude (I’m a morning person) but with fingers crook’d and stiffened like claws. I exercise them (Robert says I look like a baby experimenting with fingers) to release the thickened tendons in their thickened sheaths, and unfold human hands. Doctor Four is surprised that I have five fingers locked in bear mode. He’s not seen this before, an evolution from human to bear so quick, hurried by cancer treatments. He’s offering me surgery. Five fingers. Two hands. One at a time with a month of recovery for each. Where does all this recovery fit in my time scheme?

I liked Doctor Four. He’s the third surgeon I’ve met this year. The first surgeon was all business, appalling me with all the possible side effects and moving on objectively to plan the event. The second was downright cheerful, “You were born with a heart defect. Let’s just take care of that for you right now, shall we?” Doctor Four, tall and lanky with long blond curls, that pale look of an Englishman or Scandinavian, wandered in to the room twice, in his scrubs, looking for something. His nurse’s tone was almost mothering, “Do you need something?” He looked like the kind of man who would go get somethings himself rather than bother anyone. When he talked to me, he never recommended anything. He recognized the problem in my hands, explaining that there is a nodule in the base of each finger tendon that gets caught on either side of the sheath, locking the fingers open or closed, and clicking when it releases. He said he didn’t know why I had five clicks to deal with so suddenly. “We don’t know everything, you know...not the all the ‘whys.’” He added, “There are some options for this,” and stopped. I had to actually say, “I’d like option two, please.” I got the impression he would be much happier quietly working on wrists and thumbs and such than talking, laying out the options.  Monday I find out the date he fixes the first hand. “Which one would you like done first,” he asked. “You can even wait to the day of surgery to make up your mind.” He knows me well. I’m not used to this much say in medical offices.

These places seem to me full of paradox. On the one hand, they represent the synchronized application of so much knowledge. They are like one well-oiled machine, crunching the statistics, spitting out thousands of treatments to match the conditions they encounter, just the right protocol for just the right condition. You can feel like a cog. You can get lost.  But on the other hand, when you talk to a person in the machine, you’re reminded that at the end of the day they have no idea how your body will respond to this treatment. You are unique after all and can surprise them. You have something to add in this discussion. Some doctors do better at communicating this than others, and at listening to what you have to add. Perhaps it’s a learned skill.

You can even see the machine learning. In the last two days I have been in three hospitals, all built in different eras. You can see how bits and pieces have been added on, connected by a maze of corridors going off at odd angles. In one of these hospitals we were helped by some random secretary in a random office to find our way. In the other we had to bother a staff member to open a locked door and let us go. Not visitor friendly. But in the brand new hospital I usually go to, the floor plan is much more intuitive. The newer architects cater much more to human questions and comforts and confusions.

Perhaps today, in my uniqueness, I contributed something to the learning: that human hands and overnight bear claws and cancer treatment have some connection. Maybe I made a machine a tiny bit more human. I’ll never know.

Cancer

 Today I am in mourning.

     I am in mourning because people who would never step foot in a strip club feel compelled to vote for a man who makes his living off of gamblers and strippers. I’m sorry it’s come to this. You have to admit. The guy has a nose for where the money is.

     I am in mourning because those who would never use foul language feel compelled to vote for a man who received a standing ovation for being vulgar and could not hide his glee.

     I am in mourning because those who would never smile in the face of a white supremacist believe they have to vote for a man who just doesn’t immediately see the problem.

     I am in mourning because those who support missionaries working among the unreached to bring them to Jesus feel compelled to vote for a man who offends people of other races. We’ve always known the incarnation doesn’t mix with politics. Who could afford such kindness?

angel of grief. Wikimedia

     I am in mourning because people I like feel they need someone who boasts about being able to get away with infidelity and murder to understand them and defend them and make them great. I get it. What are the choices?

     I am in mourning because I may get written off by some for posting this at all, but what do I do with this grief? Don’t fight with me; I understand we’re in a bind. Just let me be sad.

     There are many forms of cancer, and we choose different treatments.

Evidence

Under siege from cancer treatments for a year now, my body has come undone, and in picking up the pieces and stringing them back together, my body has found some things missing, including instructions. If tendons are threads, then my body has picked a weight too heavy, and I find my bones are strung too tightly. I wear my tendons one size too small.

So says Doctor Three. After Doctors One and Two have also had their say.  Doctor one guessed arthritis or some other inflammatory disease equally irreversible and untreatable—just live with it. Doctor Two prescribed braces, which I have worn for months. Tomorrow I see a surgeon, Doctor Four. We’ll see what he says.

As each of these doctors gives me new explanations and new advice, it is up to me to weigh the information and make a decision about what to do. How do I choose between taking meds and getting surgery? What are the risks?  I am reading a book by a pastor who was diagnosed with a brain tumor. She had to choose between surgery that might cut out working pieces of her brain or radiation that would leave a large dead tumor inside her head for the rest of her life. The risks for the two options were similar, both scenarios daunting.  She found out there is even a medical term describing this position: equipoise. She was poised between two choices, equally appalling. Unable to make a decision based on science, she had to check other factors. How did she feel about each option? How would each affect her family?

Sometimes we have to make decisions before all the facts come in. Let me revise that: we are always making decisions without all the facts. And there are many kinds of facts, not all of them scientific or tangible. Feelings. Family. These all matter. And none of us are making decisions based on the same set of facts, so what might look to me (or my doctor) like an obvious choice, might not look so obvious to someone else holding a different set of facts. 

As I swam laps in the pool this morning, my senses occupied by water, and my thoughts free to range, I thought of how we make decisions to follow Jesus. For me, Jesus has been powerfully persuasive. I know that I know I know. I know him in my bones and in the pit of my stomach. I know him in the back of my eyes and in the synapses of my brain. His influence over me is all-encompassing. But I have been gathering evidence on the goodness of Jesus all my life. My parents taught me, my teachers, my reading of the Bible, my experiences, and even my kids have shown me Jesus. But, of course, not all people have such rich evidence available to them. What they know that they know that they know can be very different. What do we do with people so persuaded of something that badly contradicts what we know?

Last night I had two Muslim families sharing a meal in my home. They are devout. I learned something I did not know: Fasting during Ramadan is meant to help people remember what those suffering from hunger must feel. Not only do Muslims fast an entire summer month during daylight hours, many of them, like Manal, fast three days a month as well. I also found out that daughter Fatima is married and has been separated from her husband for four years. She cannot leave Canada because she is ill with something called superior mesenteric artery syndrome (she has an artery and an aorta in the abdomen squishing her small intestine), so he is trying to immigrate to Canada. Fatima is a Sufi, a Muslim mystic.

When you talk over dinner with friends like these, you realize that your certainty is not what will persuade them. They are already as certain as you about something else. You go back to square one. Bottom line, what is the evidence with which Jesus has persuaded you? I doubt it came as an argument. 

Masks

Authors of novels sometimes say that after they have started writing, a character runs away with the story and changes it completely. This usually doesn’t happen to me, though occasionally, I’ll be following one topic, and details from a completely different one will take over. Then I have two choices. (I don’t consider plunking two topics next to each other without any bridge an option. Or not having a topic. That’s out.) So I can either think up a way to connect the two topics (I’m the Queen of Connections) or delete the bits of the first topic and explore the second.

Today I thought I was still writing about controversy, but I wasn’t. I was writing about… (had to change this sentence five times)…how we fall back on body language to communicate when words fail. I am expert on this topic because I watched all three seasons of Lie to Me and read Malcolm Gladwell’s Blink. Actually, I miss way too much, just sailing through people’s day without noticing their internal weather. I’m better at noticing people’s feelings when I’m teaching. Do I detect enthusiasm? I ramp things up. Do I detect boredom? I move on immediately. Boredom is anathema.

Yesterday…(with my Syrian friends, “yesterday” is short hand--or synecdoche--for any time in the past. If you mean a long time ago, you add circling gestures and “yesterdays.”). So, yesterday, I met another Syrian family who has just arrived in Canada and has moved in a couple floors above Manal. They served me the thickest coffee I’ve ever tasted in a tiny cup and saucer and vanilla pudding (sweet milk is how it got translated). We invited them down for our English lesson, so my class swelled from one to six. We laughed a lot. We stood on chairs, sat on walls, turned left, turned right, touched toes, and picked out colors. Beige is “beige” in both languages. I let my guard down, sat on the floor, and behaved downright silli-ly to keep the game going.

While we worked, I was always watching the faces of my new students, because it was the only way I could tell how they felt. Body language. Micro-expressions. They knew no English. I think I feel so drawn to these Syrians because they are so immediately hospitable and expressive, like many of my Mexican friends. It makes them easier to read, easier to teach. (Maybe. They mask displeasure with guests, too.) Not all cultures are expressive, though, and I need to guard myself against grading them on that. (Would you want your introverted child graded on expressiveness?) I especially noticed Jala’s expressions. She’s the mom. She had such an intent look on her face, her forehead slightly furrowed. And when I’d address her, she’d tilt her head slightly to one side and down, a regal gesture of approbation. I could teach people like this forever. It’s rarely me that stops the lesson but bright-eyed Manal laughing and insisting, “Break, break.” She holds her head to show how full it is of learning. She would never let on if she were bored.

I think I understand my friends well. But who knows. Even simple gestures (“Go. Come.”) can be misunderstood across cultures. I remember when our friend Roland first came to visit us in Guerrero years ago. He had asked to stay in a Mixtec home, and this was his first night. We had just dropped him off. An hour later, he came to the house red-faced and upset. “They have asked me to leave!” he insisted. We doubted that, wondering, “How do you know?” He said they had gestured him to be gone, out into the dark, and that he could read people’s gestures as well as anyone. He was utterly certain of their intentions.

We traipsed over to the home of the Mixtec family, our neighbors at the time, and we tried to solve the mystery. This is what had happened: Roland had said, in Spanish, that he wanted to shower. But what the family heard was him asking for the bath-room. They had no bath-room. They bathed out in the open next to the open water tank and did their other business in the field across the road. So they gestured away from the house, into the dark, toward the field across the street. He misunderstood.

He learned, though, and went back to sleep in their home. He eventually married their daughter. And I have learned, too, reverting to childlike silliness to get a word across. Cross-cultural communication is a gift of God to keep us young and childlike and aware of our ignorance.

Wikipedia

Hot topic III

God in Arabic (Wikipedia)

     

When Manal and I try to communicate, most of what we say gets lost. The other day I saw her try out a new app that uses the camera on the phone like a magnifying glass, translating the words right onto the screen as you move the phone over them. It didn’t work all that well. Sigh. Google Translate seems to help me out more than it does her. Maybe there is more effort invested in getting it right from English to Arabic than the other way around. Or maybe, since I’ve learned several languages before, I have experience in breaking one idea down into small, simple phrases that Google can handle more easily. Manal is learning how to do this, too—keeping it simple. At first she spoke entire paragraphs into the Translator, and it spoke back gibberish. Now we use a kind of short hand, relying on the few words we know in each other’s languages, and our phones, to talk about all kinds of things. Today I found it fun that when I met her friend Wofa, Manal was translating my questions to her and relaying her answers (some of them, anyway). But still, much was lost. 

Where I live in Oaxaca, I know many of the translator teams that work hard at getting the Bible published into the 300+ languages of Mexico. I help teach their kids so that they are freed up to do their job instead of having to home school. I am happy to support them in this way, each of us using our own gift to help one another get the job done. These translator teams wrestle and consult and pray over their decisions about what words to use to communicate God’s truth effectively and accurately in Indian languages. It is hard work, and sometimes they disagree on the correct terms. Sometimes they go back and make revisions. While I am analyzing literature with their kids in the classroom, trying to decipher the authors’ intentions, trying to get at the true meaning of the scenes and images, their parents are doing the same thing with the Bible. God blesses both jobs.

One of the articles that I read in the Christianity Today bulletin about the question “Do Muslims and Christians worship the same God?” fascinated me with some details about how this same translation process works when the Bible is written in Arabic in other countries. Shortened a bit, Jay Travis, a missionary and scholar, says:

Telling Muslims that we worship different Gods makes it nearly impossible to use the dozens of Bible translations available that use the term Allah. When Muslims find the name Allah there, ah, they breathe an immediate sigh of relief! Many Bible translations over the centuries have used the name Allah for God. All translations in Arabic dating back to the 9th century used Allah, and this name is still on the lips of millions of Arabic-speaking Christians today. Arabic-speaking Christians, in fact, used the name Allah centuries before the dawn of Islam, as did Arabic-speaking Jews, saying it was the Arabic form of the Aramaic word for God. (It is interesting to note that when Jews translated the OT from Hebrew into Arabic in the 10th century, they used the name Allah). These facts indicate that Allah can be seen as simply the common word for God in the Arabic language. Similarly, translations in Indonesian and Malaysian beginning with the first Malay Scripture portions in the early 1600s have always used Allah. Over thirty languages, counting over 100 million believers, have Bibles today that use the name Allah for God.

Interestingly, the mosque here in St Catharines uses the word God in the lettering of the Shahada on its wall. On the other hand in Malaysia, Christians are forbidden to use the word Allah in their literature because the government believes this facilitates conversion. If I’m forced to choose a side on the question (like I said before, it’s not a helpful question), it’s the side of those 100 million believers using the word Allah for God, and the seekers that sigh with relief that God lives in the Christian Scriptures. They have far more at stake. For now, relying on the little experience and evidence I have, I defer to them. 

While we argue over the translation of God's name, may he not be one of the things that gets lost in the process.

Hot Topic II

Today when I went to give Manal her English class, she met me at the door in her floor-length coat, signaling to me that she was leaving the house (reminding me of the flexibility of schedules in Mexico). With her was another Syrian woman named Wofa, who knew even less English than Manal and has only been in Canada a week (I think). They invited me shopping (at the thrift store next door), and I was able to get them my senior discount J. This time Manal was brave enough to try the fitting room, and I stood guard at the door. I now know two Syrian women and two Algerian women. I’m loving it.

Manal told me she was fasting. She said it was giving her a headache. Maybe she was trying to explain why there would be no English class that day. I asked if it was Ramadan, and she and Wofa looked surprised and laughed. After conferring on the right word, they said together, “Summer.” Ok, so not Ramadan. “Why?” I asked. She tried to get it straight on Google Translate and kept saying, “No, no, no,” and finally gave up. So I still don’t know why. It’s today’s mystery. There are so many reasons that communication just breaks down even among friends. Imagine what happens during a controversy.

Like the question that has caused such a furor in the news lately: Do Muslims and Christians worship the same God? I mentioned that I had read a bulletin by Christianity Today with many contributors who gave their insight on the issue. The consensus was this is not a helpful question. It’s divisive. The real answer is, “Well, it depends.” Because although you might be asking one question, someone else might be answering another completely different one, and you might end up judging one another.

If you really mean to ask, “Do all roads lead to God?” Of course, the answer is no. Epistemologically, we are not talking about the same God. The Christian God is vastly different from the Muslim because our knowledge about him comes through the Incarnation. But if you mean to ask an ontological question, “Is there one God,” the answer is yes, because neither religion allows for there to be any more than One God. The God of the Muslims is an omnipotent, benevolent, and wise Creator, just as the God of the Christians, and there can’t be two of those. In terms of existence, we are both referring to one thing.

Here’s an example. You and your four year old son see something flying through the air. You think it is a hang glider. Your son thinks it’s superman. But both of you agree that there was something up there. Paul claims that people can derive some qualities of God from his creation and even referred to him as the “Unknown God.” This awareness people have of the One True God should not throw us for a loop but encourage us that God reveals himself as he wills. It’s up to us to show that what they are seeing is not “Superman.”

More on this later. Meanwhile, when someone brings up the controversy, ask yourself: which question is being asked? Ontological? Epistemological? Are you certain? There’s the real question.